Wednesday, December 31, 2008
We were graciously invited over to Mommy's friend Mary's house to play with her beautiful 3 yr old daughter Avery and her adorable 3 month old son Ethan. (Ethan and Connor are only a few weeks apart in age).
It was a great time for Mommy to sit and chat and have adult conversation!! And... the boys got to spend time with another baby! Although, I'm not quite sure how much they actually noticed one another, they seemed more interested in the Mommy HOLDING that "little thing that looks like me" (aka a baby). Here are some photos of the cuties:
<--- Connor & Ethan meet in the crib!
<--- Still haven't really noticed each other.
<-- "Wait! Is that a baby???"
<--- "Eh, let's just look at our Mommies again!"
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Well, my little guy is now an official cowboy thanks to his grandpa! He was given the coolest rocking horse (the horse is soft and stuffed - and when you press its ears it whinnies and neighs as well as makes the sound of hooves hitting the ground!). And...you can NOT forget his cowboy hat and Marshall's badge to make the set complete!
Connor says "Howdy Partner"
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Well, he was asleep.
His nails were long.
I thought to myself "Hmmm, what a perfect opportunity to cut them without all the squirming!"
I had 9 successful trims, I was on the last and final finger, a thumb.
All of a sudden "Waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Crying baby and blood. Definitely a combination to make any parent cringe.
I tried to suck on his thumb to make it stop.
I tried to wrap it with the burp cloth.
Finally, I got a teeny tiny bandaid and wrapped it around his teeny tiny finger.
So...Baby's First Bandaid = BAD.MOMMY
Friday, December 19, 2008
Sleeping in, doing nothing all day - and just enjoying the pile up of snow.
Well, ok, lets face it - snow days still mean the excitement and anticipation of a day off of work, sleeping in (baby permitting) and doing (next to) nothing.
But - it also means - a FULL DAY with my baby boy! An extra day of the week I get to be with him all day!
As one of my good friends said "HAPPY CONNOR DAY!!"
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Well, ok, not bald but a heck of a lot of hair has been falling out!!
I did look in to it - and apparently its perfectly normal to lose hair post partum.
No matter how normal it is, its never fun to be shampooing your hair and feel like you're losing more hairs than you are washing!
According to babycenter.com:
Many new moms are surprised to find themselves shedding more hair than usual in the first few months after giving birth, but it's perfectly normal... During pregnancy, increased levels of estrogen prolong the growing stage. There are fewer hairs in the resting stage and fewer falling out each day, so you have thicker, more luxuriant tresses.
After you give birth, your estrogen levels take a tumble and a lot more hair follicles enter the resting stage. Soon you'll have more hair coming out in the shower or on the brush. This unusual shedding will taper off and your hair will be back to its pre-pregnancy thickness about six to 12 months after you give birth.
Oh, joy!! So, not only do I hardly take the time to DO my hair - but now I should carry around some crazy glue or a wig in case I need to start patching things up a bit!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
He was smiling and very happy and then he let out a nice and clear "Ha!"
It was perfect!
It actually brought me to tears! Oh, how I wish I could hear more! I can't wait until he gets the giggles :)
Monday, December 8, 2008
I think that everything just caught up to me -- I work all day, come home try to pack (can't always do so when the baby is fussing!), I'm TIRED!!!!!!! and it just all snowballed on me and I broke down crying.
So, Mr. E took the baby to his moms for a little while so I could take a break - and not have to worry about the baby. (He figured, if the baby was still in the apartment I would still be checking on him...)
Well, I said "Yes, please give me a little bit to relax"... Then as soon as he started packing things up to take the little guy I started crying more -- I FELT GUILTY!!!!!
How could I want him to take the baby out of our home?? What kind of mother must I be if I feel like I need a break?
So, I found myself posting a message on a board I frequent (thenestbaby.com) about the current situation and all of my fellow "nesties" gave me excellent advice about how normal it was for me to need some time to myself. However, one "nestie" gave me the best advice which immediately helped me to truly put everything into perspective. She said:
"Think of the most strenuous, exhausting job you can and remember even they get lunch breaks and weekends".
And, she was right.
Monday, December 1, 2008
But...as we all know... the 2 month appointment brings the dreaded SHOTS.
Daddy had to hold the baby while the nurse gave the shots. (Mommy excused herself because she couldn't bear to be in the room. So instead she stood outside the door crying). As the night progresses the fussiness increases, a side effect I'm sure is from the vaccines.
However, I seemed to have been able to perfectly capture Baby E's sentiments about what its like to turn 2 months old...
Do you see what I see??
The face? The finger?? He's telling us that 2 months is a B.I.T.C.H.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
I decided to share a few pictures of my little man's feet since I love them so much -- and I found a poem to go with it. Enjoy!
Someday I'll jump through puddles,
Take a stroll or run a race.
Someday I'll walk across the street,
Or maybe walk in space,
Someday I'll scale a mountain,
Or I'll join a ballet corps.
Someday I'll walk a tightrope,
Or explore the ocean floor.
Someday these feet will do some things,
That only heaven knows,
But for today they're happy
Just to wiggle all their toes.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
In fact, at one point I realized I had hit the moment of desperation when I was sitting on my bed in the dark, holding him up (in burping position), watching Dancing With The Stars ON MUTE, and listening to the soothing sounds of the ocean from my alarm clock HOPING he would fall asleep.
And...he did!!! Until Daddy decided to start printing out documents and talking and WOKE UP THE BABY!!!! Grrrrrrrrrr.....
Luckily, it didn't take much for him to go back to sleep (one all the stupid printing finished)...
I anticipated a midnight wake up call, it never came...
Around 2:30 a.m. I heard him let out a single cry and a few "grunts"...but then silence
(Hm...now I actually found myself debating whether or not to go back to sleep because "he's definitely going to get up any minute now...")
Its a good thing I went back to sleep -- He slept until 5 a.m.! HOLY CRAP! He actually slept through the night without wanting a feeding or burping! I think from 10pm until 5 am is a pretty gooood stretch of sleeping for our little guy. - Of course he does it when I'm off the next day -- now if only we can continue this pattern for next week when we have work!
So, thinking that this was too good to be true I actually didn't believe that he really slept all through the night, and asked Mr E this morning "Did I miss him cry or something last night?" haha, of course not... he really just slept!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday went by so quickly that it was almost time to pack the kids up and go home when I realized I never made my daily "check in" phone call! Wow!! I went a full day without calling about the baby...
Today was the day before our 5 day weekend so I figured it would be an easy day -- hey, after today I get 5 FULL DAYS with my baby boy - and one of those days includes his first Thanksgiving!!
Well, our school held a "Thanksgiving Feast" today - and all seemed to be going well, until... my class was done eating and we just sat there socializing. I looked around, saw other teachers, aides and nurses feeding, hugging and just truly enjoying the children at the school. I suddenly got very choked up, realizing, that I should be enjoying my OWN child, instead of someone else's child.
I had to excuse myself and go cry. A lot.
Now, of course I know that I went into education so that I could be with other children and help them grow and learn, but being away from my baby is still so raw that at that moment I was so upset to be with those kids instead of my kid.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
And it sucks.
Day 1 = Horrible. Major tearfest and felt very very sad all day.
Day 2 = Still horrible, no tears just felt very sad.
Day 3 = Pretty much horrible, no tears, very sad and really missed him badly.
Day 4 = Still horrible, some tears came back this morning, sad and missed him badly.
Day 5, what will you bring me? Tears? Anxiety? Sadness?
These are horrible feelings to have all day long at work. I miss my little one so badly that it hurts me to be away from him. I know essentially I'm at work for him so that Mr E and I can provide him a good life -- but it doesn't make the sadness go away any faster.
Monday, November 17, 2008
A 6 week old baby is still VERY needy and needs his mommy.
A 6 week old mommy is still VERY needy and needs her baby.
A 6 week old baby does not typically sleep through the night yet, therefore
A 6 week old mommy does not typically sleep through the night.
A 6 week old baby may not have many worries but
A 6 week old mommy not only worries for herself, but multiply it by 100x and that's the tip of the iceberg of a new mommy's daily worries.
A 6 week old baby's body is changing rapidly - gaining weight, features are developing more distinctly and even forming a personality!
A 6 week old mommy's body is still bouncing back from the 9 months of gaining weight, changing features and even the change in personality from being a cranky pregnant woman to a cranky new mommy!!
A 6 week old baby cries when he's hungry, wet, tired and sometimes for no reason.
A crying baby makes it hard for mommy to eat, use the bathroom and sleep - therefore
A 6 week old mommy cries when she's hungry, wet, tired and sometimes for no reason!
As the evidence above suggests, there is way too much going on in the life, body and mind of a new mommy is so consumed with her new bundle of joy there is no way she is mentally or physically ready to return to work - yet, many of us must. As I did today. It was a very hard day. It's hard to explain what the separation from your new baby is like - it is very sad, but its really not just your typical "oh, I'm sad" feeling, it becomes almost a physical emotion - I could feel the separation from my little one and that's why it hurts so bad.
I'm sure that if I stayed home until 12 weeks, or 30 weeks, or 52 weeks it wouldn't be any easier emotionally but perhaps some of the other stuff would have worked itself out by then.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
My little baby is sick. Luckily he isn't running a fever but he is still suffering from his first cold.
He is all congested and his teeny tiny little nose is full of boogers (I told you this would be Gross Part 2). I just feel so bad for the little guy - he's so stuffed up that he can't and won't sleep unless he's propped up, being held or basically sitting in his swing. Anytime we lay him down on his back he screams because he can't breathe!
I can not count how many times I've used the little nasal aspirator (aka snot sucker) to clear out his nostrils. Mr. E and I have also used a saline solution (for babies, yes its safe) in addition to the snot sucker. We've been successful in helping him breathe more easily but it doesn't help knowing that he feels so crummy. (And, it doesn't help knowing its probably my fault since I'm sick too.)
On the bright (??) side, we've reached 2 milestones!
1) Baby's First cold
2) Baby's First Snot Bubble!!!
(hey, I said milestones, I didn't say traditional ones!)
Saturday, November 8, 2008
gross/groʊs/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [grohs] adjective
Slang. extremely objectionable, offensive, or disgusting:
Well, let me tell you that as a mom (or parent in general) you experience some GROSS things! Things that even days before you officially become a parent would send you running from a room trying to hold down your lunch. Once you cross over into parenthood and hold that baby in your arms the line between "gross" and "acceptable" seems to fade, if not just about diminish.
What do I know about this you ask, Since I've only been a parent for about a month. Well, I already know plenty!
As one of my previous blogs mentioned, I have been peed on countless times, and since that entry the pee-on-mom count has grown in mass proportions.
I thought it would be fun to create a little list of "grossness" :)
- Getting peed on
- Getting stinky baby poop on your hands when trying to manage dirty diaper and squirming baby
- Changing a sinky, poopy diaper too quickly - therefore, baby is STILL mid-poop and you are now stuck trying to "catch" the remaining poop in diaper while holding baby's legs!
- Having baby spit-up on your shoulders as a permanent accessory
- SPIT UP IN YOUR MOUTH AND ON YOUR FACE (*oh yes, this is true....)
but then again, I guess it is true that the line between gross and acceptable, or should I say normal has begun to diminish in the land of parenthood.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
- Unwrap plastic seal around neck of bottle.
- Unscrew cap.
- Struggle with foil covering top of bottle.
- Locate knife (or other sharp object).
- Stab foil covering.
- Peel back foil.
- Pour formula into bottles.
Well, just 2 days ago, (yes, this was after a MONTH of this process) I somehow noticed that on the lid of the formula bottle was a little sharp, pointy looking thing. Upon a closer inspection I also noticed words imprinted on it that read "TO CUT FOIL Invert Cap, Push Down & Turn"...
Ohhhh so, a built in sharp object for me to open the darn formula! I can now eliminate steps 3,4 and 5 and replace them with
Step 3. Use inverted lid to open pesky foil
Whew, its a good thing it only took a full month to figure this out. :)
Monday, November 3, 2008
On November 3, 2007 I got married...making today my
1 year anniversary!
I have been so lucky to find someone special to share my life with, and have a family with.
Mr E is a wonderful man and I thought I would "pay tribute" to our anniversary by posting pictures from our wedding in the blog! Enjoy!
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
I always thought that those carriers were for parents (or Dads!) to wear their darling baby around when it was time to go to a festival, flea market, or some other type of outdoor activity that involves a lot of walking.
However, I have quickly learned that its for indoor use too!
I love, love, LOVE holding my baby. In fact, I have mastered doing many things one-handed. Things that I never thought I'd need to master (i.e. using the toilet...lol) but when the other option is a screaming baby - you learn fast!
So, for the times that baby is fussy and just needs to be near me but I have to get stuff done VOILA! The carrier! He can be close to me, I dont have to put him down, but I have 2 hands!
(and please don't mind my double chin)
Monday, October 27, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
I'm standing in the middle of the kitchen with the baby in my arms. The baby needs a poopy diaper change. Since I'm in the kitchen I notice that I still have all of tonights dinner dishes sitting in the sink.
Mr. E walks in and I ask him if he wants to play "Lets Make a Deal".
So, he asks what I mean.
I explain - You choose your fate - dirty diaper or dishes.
What does he pick? I bet you'd be surprised.
Dirty Diaper Change!!
What would YOU have chosen? (be honest...)
Well then, that must mean that little baby your holding belongs to me.
In that case stop telling me HOW to take care of him.
If I ASK for help, tips, advice etc, please feel free to take advantage of the opportunity. But otherwise, shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
My first reaction? "Um, you're taking the baby? And leaving me here, by myself?"(uh, how dare he take his OWN son with him!) The thought of me being here, sans baby, was too outrageous for me to comprehend. But, I slowly got the baby ready for a short outing with Daddy.
Well, they have only been gone for about 15 minutes. Have I relaxed yet? NOPE! I have washed dishes, straightened up the bedroom, pre-made a few bottles...
What SHOULD I do?? Lay my exhausted self down and try to catch a few zzzz's while they're gone.
It's just so weird not having him after every move I've made these last 2 1/2 weeks revolve around him - that right now I can even go use the bathroom without making "arrangements" for his safety... Oh well, It will take some time but for now I'm having some mommy-baby withdrawl!
Friday, October 17, 2008
However, last night I decided I wanted to have a few hours to myself (well, to ourselves- me and Baby E). I took a few hours, watched some TV, listened to music with the baby etc... Then I realized "Hmm...I can probably do the overnight by myself"
So, I tried it.
(It helped knowing that there are a LOT of family members within 10 minutes of my apartment in case I really needed some support)...
Well, WE survived! Baby E had a pretty good night. He was awake a lot - so Mommy is VERY TIRED today but he was awake and NOT screaming - so it was a bargain I was willing to make.
I figured I could happily (sort of) sacrifice the sleep in return for the blood curdling screams that stabs at every mothers heart at 3 a.m.
So-- it was my first attempt at having the baby by myself for an extended period of time - and we both made it through without any catastrophes, doctors visits or crying phone calls begging for help.
In fact, I never felt like I couldn't do it on my own... :)
Of course, I'm not suggesting Mr. E take a vacation any time soon -- but it was just nice to know I did it by myself!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Only a mommy would find it as funny as I do, and not get grossed out by the number of times I've found myself soaked in pee. :)
Monday, October 13, 2008
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Just made me smile to realize how blessed I've been.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I just woke up from taking my turn sleeping while Mr E took care of the baby.
I have fed him, changed his diaper and outfit and put him in the cradle. Hopefully he'll go back to sleep, but the past few nights between the hours of 4 a.m. and 6 a.m. prove to be the baby's fussiest time... So I thought these lyrics may help paint the picture of how I feel.
I'm so tired, I haven't slept a wink, I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink. I wonder should I get up and fix myself a drink. No, no, no. I'm so tired I don't know what to do. I'm so tired my mind is set on you. I wonder should I call you but I know what you'd do. You'd say I'm putting you on. But it's no joke, it's doing me harm. You know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brain You know it's three weeks, I'm going insane. You know I'd give you everything I've got For a little peace of mind. I'm so tired, I'm feeling so upset Although I'm so tired I'll have another cigarette And curse Sir Walter Raleigh. He was such a stupid git.You'd say I'm putting you onBut it's no joke, it's doing me harmYou know I can't sleep, I can't stop my brainYou know it's three weeks, I'm going insaneYou know I'd give you everything I've gotFor a little peace of mindI'd give you everything I've gotFor a little peace of mindI'd give you everything I've gotFor a little peace of mind..........
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
<--- Crib shot - from doorway
The crib setup --->
<-- Dresser top
<--Dresser,Glider(back wall of nursery)
<--fish tank, window etc...(front wall)
That is the baby's JUNGLE THEMED NURSERY!!
The train was 100% hand painted to match the nursery bedding set we selected- this was painted with LOTS of love by Aunt Ray (we must give credit for the caboose to Uncle Mark though!! :) )
The next set of gifts come from Aunt Tiffany who took her time out to paint 3 canvases to help decorate the nursery. She surprised us by giving them as a gift for the shower - another very special gift for the baby. These 3 paintings also match the bedding set wonderfully!
We can not thank you enough for the love and time you put into these wonderful gifts!!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
(this can be found on babycenter.com)
Your baby doesn't have much room to maneuver now that he's over 18 inches long and tips the scales at 5 1/4 pounds (pick up a honeydew melon). Because it's so snug in your womb, he isn't likely to be doing somersaults anymore, but the number of times he kicks should remain about the same. His kidneys are fully developed now, and his liver can process some waste products. Most of his basic physical development is now complete — he'll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Maybe I need a Tummy Guard - you know, the equivalent to shin guards, chest pads etc... that athletes use. If not, I can just get a pillow and some ribbon and tie it around my abdomen.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
When I was at one of my first OB appointments I was told that I could still drink 1-2 cups of coffee per day. Well, I chose NOT to do that - and barely even drank decaf for a long time.
As I progressed through this pregnancy I started drinking more decaf and occasionally mixing it so that it was 1/2 decaf 1/2 regular on those mornings that I needed an extra little kick. STILL, this has not been my "normal routine".
One would think that by the time I have reached the middle of my third trimester I would be aware of what I can and can not drink. One would also think, that by the middle of my third trimester I would be able to make decisions about whether or not what I was doing would harm my baby...
Well, apparently NOT. Pouring myself a cup of coffee (YES, WITH CAFFEINE!! **GASP!**)
I was questioned as to whether or not I should be drinking that...
I mean, SERIOUSLY!!?!?!?!
Yes. I am drinking it. Yes its ok. And NO MY BABY WON'T BE BORN WITH A THIRD HEAD AS A RESULT OF MY OCCASIONAL CAFFINATED COFFEE!!!!!!!
Monday, September 15, 2008
My baby shower was this past Saturday - and everyone in our families banded together and helped out in making it a fantastic day.
It was wonderful to be with family and friends that not only love us, but love this baby. He is going to be so lucky when he's born - knowing that he will always be surrounded by people that love him and care for him so much.
Mr E and I were absolutely spoiled and showered with gifts to help prepare for his arrival and we couldn't be luckier. To everyone that participated -- THANK YOU! We LOVE you!
I will post some baby shower pics below - and coming soon - some pics of special home made presents that were given to us.
<---me cutting the cake
<--Auntie K, Granny Nana and Me Aunt A, Me and Aunt T :) --->